I give up. I can’t win. I can no longer live my life like this. I tried, oh how I tried. I give in to my demons. I know I may die but I am willing. That is all I want & nothing more. My deadly obsession has control over me once more. I just want my dream to come true even if it means putting myself at risk. I have nothing to live for. My life’s a mess. I look like I have it all together but I don’t. I fake it so real I am beyond fake but someday you will ache like I ache. I find it hard to find the tears in me eyes. Though I rarely cry, I show no fear. I want it all to go away. I want her in my life. I understand the destruction I will cause but I don’t care anymore. Its back & its not going to leave.
This reminds me of the song Sex Bomb by Spinnerette. Ha.
“I never conquered, rarely came but tomorrow holds such better days. Days when I can still feel alive … “
Pictured: No Doubt’s self titled album, Mazzy Star’s So Tonight That I Might See, Red Hot Chili Pepper’s Out in L.A., Mudhoney’s CD single for “Blinding Sun,” and Bratmobile’s The Real Janelle on vinyl!
The most special treasure is the book to the far left: Babes in Toyland: The Making and Selling of a Rock and Roll Band. I literally had no idea that this book even existed, but it does and it has pics (although in black and white and grainy) that I’ve never seen before, and interviews with Kat, Lori, Maureen, Lee Renaldo, Courtney Love, etc. etc. etc.
roses are red
violets are blue
the beatles are the best band ever
this is not a poem i’m just stating facts